hope..

my best friend becca and i have been leading a life group of amazing high school girls. girls who have real hearts and real problems.. and need a real Jesus. being a part of this wonderful group of young women has changed the way i view leading worship. getting to know my girls helps me know who is out there in the crowd i'm trying coax into the presence of God on a week to week basis. it makes so much sense to me why not everyone is ready to abandon themselves to the saving grace of Jesus the second the first note is played.. or even by the final song for that matter. there are people out there who don't really feel like worshiping... maybe they don't know if their dad even loves them.. and they can't trust their mom with the secret details of their lives because she's too judgmental.. and they have friends that would throw them under the bus at any given moment if the opportunity to look cool in front of other people presented itself... these kids can count on so little. their confidence is rickety.. and their passions are fragile. their foundations are constantly being shaken... it's not fair.. injustice can put a serious damper on someone's ability to believe in freedom...and honestly, it sucks. but, now that i have a better grasp on the heart-condition of the ppl i'm leading.. i feel like God has put something in my heart that desires EVEN MORE for them to get into the healing presence of God.. it's so important that they know Jesus. and leading worship, or being a lead worshipper, means figuring out how to help them know God sees them.. and that he offers them hope...